Tuesday, June 15, 2010

In the valley

We've been waiting 15 months now for Lil Sib, with one disruption nearly a year ago. I admit, I am starting to wonder where the light at the end of the tunnel might be. I am surrounded by beautiful new babies everywhere, and I am at a low point, another valley on this roller coaster ride.

I try to remain focused on giving the Nugget all of our love and care, and on living in the moment. I accept that God/the universe has a plan for us that it out of our hands. I know there have been families waiting longer than we have. And I would rather wait another year or two rather than be chosen and disrupted again. I know the Nugget will be just fine if he ends up being an only. And technically, he will never be an "Only" because he will always have Little Baby Cupcake.

All those good, peaceful, logical thoughts up in my head....yet....

Our hearts are longing for Lil Sib. Please come and make us complete.

3 comments:

  1. Sending love to you. Even with all the peaceful logic, sometimes it is just so hard to wait and not know. Thinking of you. xoxo, Meg

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  2. I know how you feel. You know it's going to happen, yet you just want it to happen so badly now. Patience is something they should dish out extra of at our orientation seminars, don't you think?

    I never would've thought we would've waited as long as we did, but everything happens for a reason. I'm not exactly sure what any of those reasons are, but someone does.

    My Mom worked extra hard for us and her brother (who also just had a boy this month). Since she's now not as busy, I'll send a prayer for her to throw some time your way, ok?

    Sending love to you, I know I have plenty because you sent me TONS when we were waiting.
    B ":o)

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  3. I'm feeling very much the same way right now. This wait is already almost twice as long as our first two waits combined. And I'm finding that the longer we wait, the more unreal it seems. Yet the longing grows with each day.

    I'm wishing you peace as you wait!!!

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